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Can you feel Me?

Can You Feel Me Can you feel my pain? Can you see my shame? I keep it all inside, to the world I lie. I keep it all inside, that‘s why I act tough on the outside.

In six months, all will see. Ain‘t nobody going to say nothing to me.'Cause this is my pain, my shame you see. I don‘t want anyone pointing the finger at me.

I am only fifteen. This is not supposed to happen to me. No daddy in my life, only mama here physically. She checked out mentally, but at least she is here. Over my daddy, I‘ll never shed one tear. My daddy was supposed to watch over me, protect me. But he isn‘t here. 

One day, my friend told me about Jesus, and I told her she was crazy. Am I to think that this guy is going to stick around? I‘m doing just fine on my own. She told me God loved me and I told her I‘ve been loved many times before. She said, ―This is a love you have never known.

We chatted on, and it was still hard for me to believe that God could straighten up my messed up life. She said, ―You are going to straighten out your messed up life--the choice is up to you. God will be with you every step of the way. He will see you through.

So I said to Jesus, ―If you can feel my pain, my shame, and if you know what rejection feels like, and what it feels like to have people talking against you and turning on you, then I‘ll welcome you into my messed up life because then I‘ll know that you are the only one who can help me. Let me tell you what happened…………………….

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